Now I’m the one left
alone
To depend on –
no one
Comes, calls to say ‘
“hello
You ok honey”?
gone –
Those who bore me
here.
Who had to care and hearts
never
Would dare forget my
existence.
No one truly knows me
a look
That knows what’s up.
no where
To turn in case I fall
lay bloody
Everyone walks by
oblivious
I’m not theirs.
empty
No one remembers this
baby girl
Her smiles, ponytails, first
broken heart.
People love in different ways
they call me
Wife, mom, aunt, sis, niece.
no one
Exists anymore who can call me
Daughter.
3 Comments
Renee's Ramblings 
This is beautiful, Renee. I, too, am now an orphan, so your words, your pain, your loss, ring true. Thank you for sharing.
You may not have your mom or dad here on earth but…..think about all the others that love you. Sister, brother, nieces , nephews, aunts, and very dear friends. I remember losing dad and grandma Tober(she was like a mom to me) . I was really devastated. I didn’t know The Lord at that time, I didn’t have a personal relationship with him. He The Lord Jesus calls you daughter,and He will be your everything. Beside that if you need anything even an emergency you know you could call on anyone in our family.we all love you very much. The holidays are very hard for people, we all want them to be like they always were. They change and we must change too. Finding and making new memories. Love you and have a Blessed Merry Christmas. Sandie.
Very beautiful Renee!!! I am in the same boat, and though we both know God, and our Lord Jesus, we also miss the things you mentioned. If we lived closer I think we would get together every now and then just to talk!!! You are a very neat lady and I truly value you as a friend and an advocate for people with disabilities. My best friend of 35 years died over 10 years ago. She had a disability and used a chair and worked like I did for PWD. When I lost her I lost more than an adult lifetime friend. We had talked almost daily for all those years. We knew each other better than our families knew us!!! I know you understand. Thank you for being my friend. I don’t say that often enough to those who I love!!! THANK YOU.